Goodbye, Henry Clerval

This creature is going to be the death of me!

Ever since I last updated, I have had another tragedy happen to me. I didn't think it was possible for more to happen, but it sure did!

After the creature I had created told me his story, I felt a world of emotions. He had experienced terrible things and injustices, however, he had admitted to me that he killed Justine and William. This was inexcusable! I felt a rage burn within me again. He asked me to create a female for him since nobody else would show him companionship. Naturally, I refused. He begged over and over and said that he would never do any evil again and that he would never be seen again if I did so. I was very hesitant because what if he didn't follow through with the plans he described to me? He and the creature I would create could do twice as much evil! After much thought, I finally gave in and told him that I would create a female for him. 

When my family and I got back to Geneva, my father told me that he would like Elizabeth and I to wed as soon as possible. I thought for a moment and then came up with a brilliant plan. I would go traveling for two years and far away from here I would create the creature and return home happy, no longer a slave to the monster I had created. I would travel with my very best friend, Henry Clerval. Once I returned, I would marry Elizabeth and live a peaceful life. It seemed like a flawless plan. I told my father of this, and he agreed. 

Well... it certainly did not go to plan. Henry and I did indeed travel to very beautiful places and enjoyed it dearly. However, the creation of the creature did not go as I had originally intended. When I had created the first creature, I was blinded by my excitement for the potential to create life. I worked hard and loved every second of it. This time was different. I felt so disgusted with everything that I was doing. I felt horrible with everything that I did for the creation of this creature. 

I thought about it more and decided that I just couldn't do it. I ripped the thing into pieces and never touched it again. The monster I had created before approached me again. He told me that if I didn't do it he would make me miserable for the rest of my life. I put my foot down and upright refused. He then told me that he would be with me on the night of my wedding and left. I understood that to mean that my wedding night would be the night of my death. I felt terrible about that, but at least I would be free from his control then. 

I packed my instruments, and about three in the morning I got on a boat and set sail to Perth, where Henry Clerval was. I fell asleep on the boat. When I woke up I realized that I was off course and had no clue where I was. Soon I saw land and steered towards it. I had no idea where I was, so I asked somebody, and they answered me very rudely! Suddenly they asked me to go with someone to give a statement. I was very confused as I had just arrived there and hadn't done anything wrong. 

They told me that somebody had come on a boat, dropped off a corpse on the shore, and then steered off. They thought it was me! They wanted me to see the body so they could monitor my reaction. 

It was Henry Clerval. I think I died inside. 

I haven't moved in two months. I don't know how I'm not dead yet. I can't bring myself to eat, I feel sick constantly, I can't bring myself to shower, I can't bring myself to move whatsoever. All that I feel is misery. I'll probably get the death sentence, too. I know everyone thinks I did it.

I'm going to attach a picture of one of the Swiss mountains me and Henry traveled to.